Procrastination

That's my problem for the past while - and I'm talking months. I haven't had a paying client for too long. Luckily we did have some guests staying in the B&B, but hardly anything to write home about. I've been working on a new business plan for the past two weeks now and still not done. But, have completed a new website for my graphic design work with full updated portfolio so I guess that's something although I keep having doubts about it. I keep changing my taste in things. I almost need to be able to update it monthly!

Hubby's a bit mad at me for doing odd little bits for friends for free. Sometimes it's not even friends. I created a CV for someone, did invitations for a Women's Day event and Googled a Grade 8 student's cultural project all for nada. What a putts I am! I'm very ready to keep busy doing some arbitrary project for anyone else, but can't get the steam together to go start doing something for myself. I'm always finding some hold-up for not getting out there and talking to people. Hubby gave me a talk the other day and said that if I'm not prepared to sell myself or think that I can't handle being a freelancer then I should go find a job doing something else - like reception or PA work. Bit of a wake-up call. I haven't given up yet though. I think my ideal life is out there in the future somewhere and I just have to keep taking baby steps towards it. As long as I don't stop I should be ok.

Have to write my stupid learner's license test AGAIN. Let the last one expire - yet another embarassing truth. So will be doing that at the end of the month. Hope I make it. We have friends visiting from London in September for 3 weeks. Really looking forward to seeing some of our fairest Cape with them. It will be a blessing having them here as they know the whole history behind our search for this place and how we got to be here and what we hoped for. Will be interesting to see what they think of our achievements thus far.

Anyway, haven't really been 'out' since we got back about 18 months ago now. I'd love to catch a sunset concert at Kirstenbosh Gardens, sundowners on Camps Bay 4th beach (with hotdogs for dins), fish & chips in Hout Bay or Kalk Bay and Langebaan or Saldanha and Gordon's Bay, a day on the wine route, a walk and picnic up Table Mountain and last, but not least a good evening in a jazz club somewhere. And, am dying to go camping even for a day or two somewhere with hot springs. I miss having a bath tub! We have six toilets in our home, five showers and no bath. And the horrible thing is that they're always giving problems in some way or other - the most recent being hubby breaking yet another toilet seat. He is six foot something and a strongly built guy so it's almost not his fault, but I think he's broken one for every year we've known eachother. Luckily Pick n' Pay had a special on some cheap wooden one last time we were there so it's been replaced. No more avoiding that loo.

I can't wait for spring and warmth - to swim and have my hair dry naturally in a couple of hours. I have very curly hair which I don't blow - dry save for maybe twice a year - which sometimes is still wet at 7pm in the evening - I don't think that's good for some reason. I'm touching wood right now to ward off the cold I usually have coming my way at least once a year. I am quietly puzzled as to why I haven't had one this year yet. Actually very puzzled. Must keep eating those oranges I guess.

I still wonder if anyone will ever read my blog. Kinda not expecting it, but we'll see. Will have to spend a bit more time trying to figure out all the bits on it.

Until next time...